Bahamut

[firebyrd]

I found Bahamut dead this morning. Eric and I discussed and decided against a necropsy. I would have had Bahamut for 15 years in February and he was an adult of unknown age and origin when I got him. He had definitely been slowing down lately, though I'd been happily living in Denial Land even when I considered it, because it was subtle enough I couldn't just point at things and say, "This and this and this are different," for the most part. He hadn't mated with Elvis in a long time, but that was the only difference that was easy to articulate, so I dismissed it.

I'm reeling between shock and grief. On the one hand, he was definitely getting on in years for a cockatiel, so I'd partly braced myself for his inevitable death. On the other, I've had him so long, through so many different things, that it was hard to not ascribe a type of immortality to him. There are cockatiels that live into their 20's, sometimes even their late 20's, so I liked to assume I'd have him for a while yet. I was even planning on letting Enoch hold him in a few months. He was my first bird and I wasn't ready to let him go, though I'm sure he's ecstatic to be reunited with Wyvern.

Comments

[pleiades829.livejournal.com]

(((Hugs))) I'm so sorry. :(

[firebyrd.livejournal.com]

Thank you.

[thistle-chaser.livejournal.com]

Aww man. :( So sorry to hear that! *snugs lots*

[firebyrd.livejournal.com]

Thanks.

[mistytsim.livejournal.com]

Oh, Ginny... I am so sorry. I got to hold him once, didn't I?

Love, hugs, and chocolate to you.

[firebyrd.livejournal.com]

I believe you did as you were a little less intimidated by him. Thank you.

[noizangel.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry. :( It's tough when a pet passes.

[firebyrd.livejournal.com]

Thank you.

[saeriellyn.livejournal.com]

*hugs* sorry to hear this. He sounds like he was a sweetie. It's so hard to say goodbye, especially when it is sudden, and doubly hard when there is so much history there.

If we didn't love them so much, it wouldn't hurt so badly. :(

[firebyrd.livejournal.com]

That's for sure. As a Simon and Garfunkle song says, "And a rock feels no pain. And an island never cries." Without love, there would be no reason to feel sad. *hugs*

[msking.livejournal.com]

*hugs* I'm so sorry. You've had him forever. It's hard to think how he could be gone. :(

[firebyrd.livejournal.com]

Yeah, it is. I've had him basically the whole time I've known you minus a few months at the start...

[seyrah.livejournal.com]

Condolences--I feel for you.

[firebyrd.livejournal.com]

Thank you.

[unstoppableme.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry. I've never had a bird (allergies suck), but I know how rewarding they can be as companions. Know I'm thinking about you.

[firebyrd.livejournal.com]

Thank you. It's so sweet of you to be concerned when you have so much on your plate. I've been thinking about you and hope everything went well with Liam.